3 weeks old!

I can't believe baby Winn (yes, that is his name) is 3 weeks old!  We got his social security card in the mail today.  It literally seems like he was born yesterday.  We are slowly getting the hang of things.   Today our washing machine broke down, so I took him out to Sears to look at new washers.  We are doing cloth diapers, so going without a washer is  not an option!  Cloth diapering was going great for a couple of days until he got a diaper rash and I realized that most diaper rash ointment is not compatible with cloth diapers.  Took me 3 days to have a spare moment to research which ointment to order on-line.

Then there was trying to figure out our health insurance situation.  We are currently on Cobra and were wanting to get individual policies until I found out yesterday that an individual policy (with maternity, just in case we decide to go for #2 in a year or so) for me would be $700/mo.    Holy shit!   The guy helping me said that it's because I am taking synthroid and take imitrex for my headaches.  Health insurance in Mississippi sucks.  BCBS is the only health insurance in the state that offers maternity.  Well we are staying on Cobra until we figure out something else.

Breastfeeding is going better.  I do have these weird random letdowns all during the day when I leak all over.  While I am feeding him on one breast, the other leaks like a damn faucet.  I am still wearing the nipple shield on my left side because my nipple stays sore.  I spend alot of time walking around my house topless letting the ladies breath because I am terrified of getting thrush.  Yeast loves me and seems to love my son too.  I am already using nystatin on his diaper rash.  

Winn has alot of gas after eating.  Been using gas drops, but can't really tell if it helps.  He is sleeping pretty good at night after 1 am.  He usually sleeps until around 5 or 6 and then wakes to feed, then goes back down for a couple of hours.  We co-sleep during naps, but he sleeps in a cradle or his co-sleeper during the long stretch at night.  I love having his little body curled up next to mine.    It's amazing how much babies this age sleep!  He sleeps alot on my chest in the Moby wrap (which I am loving for this age) during the day.   I am using this little gadget called Itzbeen to keep track of the times between feedings.  It has been a lifesaver.  I also like the My Breast Friend.

I am definitely more worn out post partum than I was 40 weeks pregnant.  I feel like I've gone from the pregnant princess to the post-partum peasant (I read that it in a book somewhere).  Definitely feeling the baby blues at times.  My c-section incision hurt alot yesterday evening ( l lifted something I should not have).  I can barely find time to brush my teeth and shower, but I know this stage won't last forever and when it's gone I will miss it.

Thank you all for your supportive comments on my birth experience post.   Still coming to terms that I didn't get the birth I wished for - sometimes I just really want a do-over. However I did get the baby I so desperately wanted and I have to keep my mind on this.  I am still amazed that I have a son.  I love watching him sleep and then trying to wake up.  He does this little shaking thing with his fists when he streches way out.  We still don't know who the heck he looks like.  I think he was trying to smile at me this morning.  It won't be long until he is smiling at me all the time:)

Here is a picture of him in the "pod" I knitted for him which is actually too small for him.

  This pic is from today - He's dreaming about his future soccer career. .  .