Sunday, January 13, 2013

A New Year . . what's ahead?

I can't believe that I've been a mother for over 6 months!  We had a very good Christmas with Winn and the rest of my extended family.  My favorite part was the Christmas Eve service at my parent's church - he sat through the whole thing.  He is such a good baby most of the time.  Breastfeeding has evened out.  I offer him solids twice a day and he loves to eat anything I give him, especially fruits.  Sleeping is going better for the most part.  I've had to re-ferberize him on occasions after we go out of town, etc.  Winn had his 6 month shots last Monday and that made him cranky for a couple of days - glad to get that over with.  We didn't get the flu shot for him, but our pedi told us to keep him away from Walmart. 

 It's been raining so much lately and I'm so sick of it, because I love getting outside with him.  My living room has turned into a play station. I have surrendered to the chronic mess that goes along with having a child.  I ordered this baby corral thing with extensions to make it bigger, and put down 3 yoga mats inside it.  He can really get some traction on my yoga mats and is starting to crawl!  I can get in there and play with him.  Favorite toys are stacking cups I bought at walgreens and these bath toys  - he loves anything that is not a toy, i.e. remote control, my phone.  His favorite book is Brown Bear Brown Bear what do you see. - first book he actually looks at while I'm reading instead of trying to eat it.  No teeth yet, but I am sure they will be in any day now. 

Even though Winn is still a little baby,  we've been thinking about if and when we want to try to give him a brother or sister.  I'm reading Far from the Tree by Andrew Soloman and it's kind of freaking me out about having another child.  The chapter I am reading right now is all about mothers raising severely autistic children and how hard that is. Not a good book to read when contemplating having more children. Other chapters were on deafness, dwarfism, down syndrome, schizophrenia and prodigies. Maybe I should just count my blessings and stop at one.    There are some days where I feel like I could handle 2 babies close in age, but other days when it totally wears me out to picture my life with an infant and a toddler.  We need alot more money coming in to make it a comfortable option for us, i.e. bigger house and part-time nanny.  I want to breastfeed until Winn is at least a year old (if he wants to go that long).  If we are gungho about having another baby, I think we would go back out to Colorado in October for another FET and then they would be exactly 2 years apart if it worked.  But will I be ready by the Fall?   I'm lucky to have my frosties, so I don't feel a huge pressure to jump right back into fertility treatments again and who knows maybe it will happen naturally (yeah right).  Technically, I have until age 54 to make this decision regarding my frozen embryos.   I don't want to wait too long, because I'd like to go back to work and I am scared I will forget everything I know if I stay at home too long.  So we'll see what happens.  Right now I just don't have that strong yearning to have another baby, which is probably pretty normal at seven months postpartum . . . I just want to focus on Winn and enjoying all of his "firsts" which are my firsts too.  


  1. I will be interested to follow along as you consider baby #2. I want another baby badly right now. Yes, already. Logistically, we're not ready, we don't have the money, etc. And it's been nice lately to focus on me a bit and start working out again, etc. But overall, if I found out I was pregnant I'd be so effing thrilled!

  2. Winn is getting so big! I'm glad sleeping is getting better, I know it was rough there for a while. We didn't do the flu shot either. It didn't make sense to us when our baby isn't in daycare. I think about baby #2 all the time lately. Probably because I have a big birthday looming ahead of me! Not to excited to be pregnant again so soon, but would really love a sibling for C. I figure what will happen, will happen. If a second kid is meant to be, then the FET will work! So proud of you for continuing to breast feed, you are amazing! Great job mama!

  3. Such a cute photo! Happy New Year!

    I'm glad to read that Winn is doing so well. I can't believe they're getting so big!

    We've also been thinking about #2 and when we'll have to head out to Colorado...We're thinking sometime in Oct/Nov.

  4. Thanks for writing about having another baby. We've done everything CCRM needs and are just waiting for my period to start to start our FET and I'm having major doubts now that it's so close (as is my husband)...every day I change my mind...I just don't know how to make the decision...
    Also wanted to mention two is totally doable, mine are twins and I don't know what one is like, but you can do it!
    Also on a practical note...I didn't know this but CCRM wants you to stop breastfeeding at least 3 months before an FET...
    Glad Winn is doing so well. He's sooooo cute!!!

  5. Glad things are going well with Winn. We are preparing for number 2 already because what Kristen said, CCRM wants you to stop breastfeeding at least 3 months before, my nurse told me that when we had Logan. I wish I had more embryos but we only have 1 more shot at this so that's our reason for rushing into the next one, we may have to do another cycle...THAT I can't even begin to wrap my head around especially since our lives are so different since the last time we did it. Also, I don't plan on working any more after 2 and I really can't wait for that, I feel like I am missing so much everyday when I am at work.

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  7. Hello dearie! So glad Winn is so happy and healthy...and that sleeping is going better. That's one of the most important things to everyone's happiness!

    Tough decisions on #2 - seems like all of my friends, even those who are fertile, struggle with this one. In a way I guess I'm lucky to have had twins and not have to face these decisions!

    I am also glad you have a number of options for #2, that really takes the pressure off and you have the luxury of deciding when you want to go for it. And I know what you mean about work - I want to go back to work at some point, but I just don't know how/when. I don't want to miss a second of the boy's development, but I also know I'm going to go crazy if that's all I have in my life. Look forward to struggling through those decisions with you.

    Thanks for the update, I am going to try to get a post out there soon - seems like a monumental task!

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