The last couple days, I've noticed that I have become increasingly obsessed with checking my pantyliner and TP for fear of spotting. And this morning that fear became a reality. Even though I know that spotting is fairly common during the first trimester, I would really rather not experience this.
It was light brownish red and kind of watery and not a huge amount of it. I am putting myself on bedrest for the rest of the day.
It really shook me up. It just makes me realize that I am not out of the woods and really have no control on the outcome of this pregnancy. This has been the longest 2 1/2 weeks of my life - Tomorrow I am 6 weeks and will get my hormone levels checked - I would like to throw an HCG in the there too.
I am looking forward to next Tuesday's ultrasound, but also dreading it, because this will be either be the best day or the worst day of my life. There is just so much riding on this. I can't bear the thought of having to start over. When I see what so many women have to go through to get a viable pregnancy, I am a lightweight, but it just seems like it would be so daunting to do another FET. I have been on the freaking hormones for 2 months and I just really want this to work!