My husband and I set out early this morning for Magnolia Grove Monastery for a day of mindfulness with Thich Nhat Hahn http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thich_Nhat_Hanh. It started with a 1 hour mediation walk and there were about 400 people, so it was very cool to take a quiet walk through the woods with that many people. The talk that he gave was about 2 hours and my mind wandered alot thoughout it, but it was amazing to be in the presence of such a gentle, enlightened being. Thay (name that he goes by) talked alot about non-being and being and how we all came from something and when we cease to exist in our human form, our energy will continue on, so in this way we are liberated from time. Very metaphysical stuff. My mom ended up driving over for it, so it was nice to visit with her as well. The weather here has been phenomenal, so that has helped my mood and outlook.
I am trying do things to distract myself, but I am thinking about what's happening or not happening in my uterus alot. I felt a little bit of cramping in my lower pelvic region yesterday, but not so much today. I am trying to keep my expectations down. I am already feeling like I need to start planning for my next FET. To have it work on the first try with one embie just seems too good to be true. And believe me we're putting 2 in there next time if this doesn't work.
I got my husband to hide the HPT tests. I just don't think I can handle the stress of finding out outcome of this FET more than one time and though it is very tempting to go the POAS route.
Only 3 more nights after this one til beta day. Wish me luck!